Push em down…..that's how I have been dealing with my feelings the last 3 weeks. All the stuff with my mother-in-law being in the ICU and on a ventilator then making an amazing recovery and surviving has been an emotional rollercoaster. I haven't stopped yet to process and deal with all the feelings. But I wasn't really worried about it cause she survived and was finally at home recovering. It took a bad turn yesterday. Got news that now fluid is building around her heart. They drained it yesterday but now have to watch if it comes back. But the horrible news is that they found some cancer cells. Her cancer is back. We will find out more today when she gets to see all of her doctors and they can go in-depth of what they found and what it means. She has fought and beat cancer before but has expressed to us in the past that she might not be up to fight it again if it were to ever return. Holy f***!!!!! These are feelings that I just can't deal with right now. I see an epic meltdown in my future.
Distraction………playing in our hallways right now is that Anna Kendrick's song "Cups". Don't know if you have heard it or not but the chick stations in town are playing it. I love this freaking song. I loved it the first time I heard it in that movie Perfect Pitch. If you haven't seen Perfect Pitch you are missing out. I like the radio version of the song but the one she does in the movie is so much cooler…………..